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I hate my brain. It's an hate relationship that's been going on for a decade, I think, ever since I realized that I'm actually a bit limited. Limited in the sense that the environment I live and work in operates in a certain way: systematic, structured, precise, while my brain is constantly wandering and jumping from one thought (and one task) to another. I hate this about myself. I've spent weeks of my life reading books about productivity, watching videos on how to organize my weeks and calendars, setting up Notion, Obsidian, Evernote, Todoist and every other tool you can think of. The result has always been the same: abandoning these tools and their best practices to operate in the only way my brain knows how: - Wake up in the morning without knowing what I'm going to do - Do random things - Go to bed frustrated Yes, I'm good at my job, and that, without ever having a single job interview in my life, has taken me from my first gigs to making over 5K a month freelancing (and without ever looking for new clients, they've all come to me organically). But it's a bit like going to school and doing well in almost every subject without ever opening a book at home. You're just lucky that your brain picks things up, but you lack the gift of focus and dedication that would allow you to truly excel. I think this problem has also, over the years, affected my memory. I often can't remember in detail what I did the day before, and I keep not writing anything down, without really knowing why. I used to think I just needed the right tool. Now there's AI. But even with AI, I'm terrible at keeping track of what I do or what I need to do. I mean, all I'd have to do is talk to an agent and tell it to remind me of things, but I don't. I keep asking myself, day after day, why all of this happens. There are a few explanations I give myself, but none of them really convince me: > I have some kind of attention disorder (dysgraphia or dyslexia?) > I don't really want to put 100% effort into things because I'm afraid of failing, so I only try hard enough not to feel guilty > I hate what I do. Maybe deep down I don't love this world and just want an ordinary, low-IQ job where I come home physically exhausted but satisfied because I've given everything without having to use any of my intellect. > I don't have the courage to chase my dreams. I should quit my job, focus only on what I believe would make me wake up every morning ready to take on the world, and just go for it. But my brain says, "You're too lucky. You found these clients who pay you, you live a comfortable life without ever having to go through a job interview, and now you'd really throw it all down the drain to chase a dream?" I think this, from the bottom of my heart, is the one big reason why I don't feel fulfilled or happy. I always have the instinct to blame other people when they waste my time with things I consider pointless, even though I know perfectly well that most of the days I spend at home, with nobody bothering me, are days when I never really accomplish anything concrete. Days wasted dreaming about doing this and that without ever actually doing this and that. This condition is hard to deal with because sometimes it makes you hate people who manage to be better than you, more organized than you, more capable than you. But I've learned to manage that part. At least now I don't take it out on others. I know I'm the problem. There's no moral to this post, no lesson for anyone, least of all for me. It's just that sometimes things need to be said and if I say them here, someone will read them, and it'll be a bit like admitting it, like laying myself bare about this part of me that, as I said at the beginning, makes me hate my brain.

So... @poteto just used @thsottiaux's dog on his slide at Code Summit lmao

me ever since they added grok bot to X chat:

From my first tweet to this I loved the journey so much, so much. I loved meeting smart people, sharing my dev life, my struggles, my hopes... everything. X is a fun place if you're in the right niche. And I love all the people in my niche, even the ones who keep posting "let's connect" Yes, i'm talking to you. I love you even if you look like an idiot when you try to grow your audience just by asking them to follow you

Not rich, but sublime 🍂 >>

The XGlow extension is being installed almost 30 times a day. Are those bots? And if they are not, how do people find it since i just made a couple of (not viral) posts a few weeks ago?

I wish I could put grok @bot on my RayBan Meta

For those who had doubts: I managed to turn this MacBook Air into a desk lamp. AMA

when something breaks, always open it and try to fix it yourself

I'm finally free from the FOMO of building a product. Now the process is: > brilliant idea for a product, often b2b > i think "saas is dead" > i go lie on the couch and watch a movie

OS are dead: "As an experiment, one Anthropic engineer gave Fable 5.2 the task of designing a prototype operating system. Starting from an empty folder, the model coordinated > over 1,000 subagents, > working around the clock for eight days writing, testing, and reviewing code. It produced a working operating system that > boots on a laptop, with its own core that runs the machine, drivers for the disk, keyboard, and network, permanent file storage, windows, a login screen, an installer, and built-in Claude functionality"

2 weeks of yapping on X pays for my monthly Codex Pro plan. Crazy.

Well, this will finally let me save nearly half the cost of my subs by reducing API credit usage across my tools. And the timing is interesting. My plan for this week was to switch all my AI workflows to claude, since I have $1,000 in API credits through their startup program. Now I don't need to make the switch. Yay! This kind of improvement is WAY more valuable than resets @thsottiaux.

I was showing my nephew one of my project. - “Unc, how did you make it?” - “I didn’t make it. Claude did.” - “Who’s Claude?” Me:

I just wasted another $100 on Codex Pro Because I forgot to cancel my subscription, again. I’ve been using almost nothing but opus 5.5 since it came out. Not even Astra has been useful for refining project ideas or running security checks Last month I never even managed to use more than 10% of my weekly limits. Not once in 4 weeks. Now I need to find a way to get my money’s worth this month

This is what we all truly want. Not money. Not fame. Not MRR. Not success. Just a walk on an autumn sunday, coming home to a plate of pasta, a warm fire, a good book, a movie, and finally curling up under the covers

I like the "boring sidebar" on @t3dotcodes

I think my analytics are being flooded by bots. For the past 30+ days I’ve been seeing suspicious traffic from Singapore and China. Bounce rates: - Singapore: 98% - China: 96% Is anyone else seeing this kind of traffic lately, or is it just me?

I’m just the king of replies

Fake it till you make it